what on earth are friends?

i've finally come to a point in life.

there's no need to treat ppl so nice in life.

if u start to treat ppl so nice..u might just mistaken them as ur "family".

once u "tag" them as ur "family" u treat them as ur "family" which includes scoldings, ignores and immediate disappointment.

don't forget i am ur friend not ur "family".

it woke me up.

what am i thinking.

no matter how close a friend is, that friend is still a stranger.

thank you for letting me realise that.

afterall, i will be the one who will be hurt.

then, i will be the one who will be emotionally and mentally affected.

it brings me no benefits at all.

why do i bother.

seriously, why do i care and bother.

it is none of my business.

that is how reality is.

i hate betrayal.

i seriously hate betrayal.

give me all the reasons but let's not forget that everyone is also stressed and tired out.

straightforward, harsh and evil, lousy with words and expression of sympathy.

that is who i am and that is how i portray myself ever since i step into high school.

however, regardless what, i have understood an important point in life.

thank you for letting me realise that before i enter into society.

never trust ppl and care too much for a person.

never be too close to a friend and treat that friend as part of "family".

it is thus more important to treat everybody rationally.

in this world, good friends do exist.

or rather, friends whom u can talk to comfortably do actually exists.

however, there are no such thing as best friend or close friend.

so what on earth are friends?

emotionally or anything

cannot study or anything

perhaps i will be the last sort of person worth complaining to.

i am after all not worthy to be a listener.

i never am and never is.

but i hope i will be a good listener one day though that day seems pretty far away.

the light does seem rather dim for me to reach that path.